“I’ll never hurt you, I’ll never leave you, I’m yours forever”

Kyuhyun bite his lips, tears dropped from his face. His mind was resounding the same thought, “He betrays me…. He betrays me…”

Kyuhyun drove his Audi faster and faster. How come this all happened? After all of that suffer, after all of that sorrow, finally Hangeng gave him that comfort. When he had to struggle form the fans hatred, when he had to stay at hospital while the others had the concert, Hangeng was the one who always sat beside him. He was the one who comforted him no matter what. But now… how could Hangeng…

Kyuhyun sobbed, his eyes blurred with tears. He did not care anymore. Again, he forced his Audi to run faster, until…

Tiinn…..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

“Hannie….”

“Heechul…” Hangeng moaned. He pressed Heechul lips deeply. Heechul replied hard. He wanted all of this for so long. He almost desperate to caught Hengeng’s attention. But now, this night, he will be his. Heecul grabbed Hangeng’s body closer, when suddenly…

Naui gobaek achime nun tteosseul ttae bogosipeuneolguldo
Naui gipeun jameun kkaewobeorin saramdo

Hangeng’s phone rang. Heechul sighed as Hangeng ended his kiss for answering the call. Why should someone called in this very nice moment?

“Yoboseyo?” Hangeng answered in thick accent.

“……..”

“Pardon?”

“……..”

“Where?! Where is he now?!”

Hanging looked so panic, tears rolled from his eyes, made Heechul amused. What happen?

Hanging put his phone, his body slide down to the floor. What was it? He looked up at Heechul. “Kyuhyun… he got an accident… again. He is in critical condition now. Leeteuk hyung will pick us up now, to get there together.”

Heechul gasped while Hangeng cried harder. Kyuhyun? His real megnae? For all this long he couldn’t get Hangeng because this lovely man had already has a relationship with Kyuhyun. Now, when finally he could drag Hangeng to his bed, Kyuhyun –once more— became a barrier, although in a very different way.

“It is too late to save him, we can do nothing now.”

Leeteuk gasped while he heard what the doctor said. Sungmin squeezed Donghae’s shoulder, who already sobbed while his hand held crying Eunhyuk’s wrist tightly.  Kangin hugged Leeteuk’s body that already shivered. Ryeowook cried harder and harder, so Shindong had to make him calmer.

Kibum remained silent, but his eyes were already full with tears. He never cried before, whatever happened. But it was different now, Kyuhyun was the different magnae. He always tried hard. He never complained. Why should he go this fast when Kibum started to like him?

Siwon buried his face on Yesung’s shoulder. He already cried since the doctor said his first word. Yesung’s body shivered. He sobbed and seemed to cry harder.

Hangeng’s body limped on the sofa. He cried silently. It was all his fault. If only he didn’t betrayed him, if only he didn’t kiss Heechul that night in the time Kyuhyun went home from the studio so that this magnae knew that he already betrayed him, if only…

Heechul sobbed beside him. He felt guilty too. Why should he tease Hangeng like that when he knew that Hangeng was already becoming Kyuhyun’s lover? He knew that this magnae wouldn’t protest, that was why he kissed Hangeng when in the right time, when Kyuhyun saw them. He knew that Kyuhyun would went away silently and let him possessed Hangeng. At that time, he only wanted Kyuhyun to give up about Hangeng. One thing that he didn’t know was, how bad Kyuhyun love Hangeng and how hurt his heart actually.

“Hangeng…” Hangeng looked up when Leeteuk squeezed his shoulder gently. His leader’s eyes were red. “We all have already talked to him. It is your turn now. Please, don’t make him tired. We know that there is no hope anymore, but… at least please make him happy and comfortable.”

Leeteuk sighed, “Heechul already there too. They just talked about forgiveness and happiness. It is your turn, now. You are the last. Please?”

Hanging nodded slowly. He gathered his strength and walked silently toward Kyuhyun’s room. He almost cried again –even harder—when he saw his lover’s limp body on the bed. He was pale, but he still tried to smile. A tired smile, a weak smile, smile that he used to see in the hospital some moments ago when Kyuhyun being hospitalized because of his first accident.

“Hyung… why do you….l-look s-so sad? Don’t hyung…. P-please smile…”

Hanging squeezed his own chest. It’s not easy, really. How could he smile while the one that he really love dying in front of you? But… if he didn’t, it  would make Kyuhyun sad.

“I’m… I don’t…,”

“Sit here, hyung… s-sit next to me.”

Hangeng sat obediently. He looked at Kyuhyun’s eyes. That eyes, still glistered with love, but… the light there was dead slowly. Hanging could see that.

“D-don’t cry, hyung. It’s my f-fault that I couldn’t d-drive that careful.”

“Kyunnie, please….”

“I know that I have no more time, hyung. So, I h-have to talk to y-you. Saranghaeyo, h-hyung…”

Hangeng bite his lips. He Squeezed Kyuhyun’s wrist gently. He couldn’t stand it anymore, “I’m sorry Kyunnie, I never meant to hurt you. I… I never meant to betray you. I… I really don’t know what I have done. Forgive me Kyunnie… I… still I love you so much. Don’t talk too much. You should have a rest. You will be okay. You will be all right, Kyunnie…”

Kyuhyun shook his head weakly, “No, I know that I won’t be all right. I know t-that this is our l-last time. So, just l-let me talk to you… be-because I’m afraid that I’ll have no o-other chance.”

Hangeng bite his lips. It was too hard. “Say it, Kyuhyun-ah… just say it. I’ll listen…”

“I love you… s-since the first time I saw you. I wanna g-give my life f-for you…” Kyuhyun breathed harder. Hangeng sighed. “After I left… please… p-please just life happily. I’ll b-be happy if you are h-happy. Okay? Promise me you’ll be happy.”

“Kyuhyun-ah, I love you… I love you so much…. You know? I love you since the first time I saw you performed for the audition.”

Kyuhyun smiled weakly. He remembered how Hangeng came to him and treated him a cup of coffee after he got his audition. “I know, hyung… I k-know. And I know too t-that you never mean to hurt me, to b-betray me.”

“Please forgive me, Kyuhyun-ah… forgive me… I am really sorry.”

Kyuhyun’s weak hand squeezed Hangeng wrist, tried to comfort him. Hanging gripped him tigher, didn’t wanna loose him that fast. “I already am, don’t worry. Sorry, for not being with you longer, hyung. But, I’ll a-always be t-there for you….”

“I’ll never forget you… I’ll always… Kyuhyun-ah? Kyuhyun-ah? Kyuhyun-ah! Answer me! Kyu!” Hangeng screamed in panic when he realized that there was no heart beat from his lover anymore. Kyuhyun remained silent. His lips formed a weak smile. Hanging kept screaming his name while finally Leeteuk and the rest of the members rushed into the room, realized what had happened, and –just like a choir singing a requiem—cried together for Kyuhyun’s death.

Hangeng screamed louder in his last cry. He didn’t realize when Leeteuk dragged him slowly to leave that room so that the doctor could take care of Kyuhyun’s body. All were dark for him now. The most important part of his life was already gone, and it was because of him. How could he life now?

Hangeng sobbed slowly. Good bye Kyuhyun… I have promised you that I’ll never forget you. You also have promised me not to leave me, right?

“How’s he, Doc?”

“Still, there’s no change.”

Heechul looked sadly at the one that he loved now. Hangeng sat in the corner of the room, his eyes showed that he had no interaction with the environment now, his lips still murmured Kyuhyun’s name, over and over without felt tired.

“Is there any hope to bring him back to the reality, Doc?” Leeteuk asked, had no heart to watched Hangeng like that any longer.

“Of course, but it will be the hardest thing to do. He blames himself, then he buried himself into the darkness that he created. It is possible to save him, but it is too difficult.”

Heechul squeezed his eyes when he saw tears rolling from Hangeng’s. his mouth still mentioning Kyuhyun’s name, and his regret. Heechul bite his lips. I’m the one who start this disaster, Hangeng. So, why should you blame yourself that hard? Not only you hurt yourself, but you hurt me deeply too. Back to your consciousness, please….

“You’re rejecting him?!” Eunhyuk nodded slowly. Donghae.s eyes widened in disbelief. “But why?”

Biting his lip in nervous, Eunhyuk answered slowly, “He is different now, you know…. He is becoming more… emmm… tough?”

“What do you mean?”

“I think you’ve already know that he never cry, he never complain, that he always stiff. But… now he is becoming more…. Yah, he is not Sungmin that I know anymore.”

Donghae shrugged his shoulders. “I miss a lot of things since I leave you all to China, so now, would you like to explain to me? All?”

Eunhyuk took a deep breath. Slowly, he started to tell Donghae everything. How things became a little bit more difficult for them since Super Junior M was sent to China. How Leeteuk hyung and Kangin hyung had to work harder than before -–it’s hard to exist as the best in South Korea since some of their mainstay members were pulled away to China--. And that’s the beginning of all, when Sungmin became more superior, always tried to take control in Eunhyuk’s every move, and the worst of all, never be the funny Sungmin like before. He became too serious.

“He always tries to take control of me, that’s why I can’t afford it all anymore.”

“Hyung… I wanna talk.”

Leeteuk stopped cleaning his white desk. He always neat, especially because most of his belongings are white. It is easier for white things to get dirty. “What is it about?”

Donghae licked his lips. He knew that actually Leeteuk hyung already knew what he wanted to discuss. Leeteuk was so great, that’s why Donghae always think that this hyung was the best leader in South Korea.

“Sungmin ah and Hyukjae ah… how shall I start it?”

Leeteuk smiled and stroked Donghae’s back. This dongsaeng always innocently worried about other’s condition. That made him thought that Donghae’s cute.

“Sungmin is being strange nowadays, I know about that. But that’s because he doesn’t want the elders work too hard by ourselves. He wanna be more independent. Don’t worry, I have an idea about both of them. But you have to help me of course.”

“So why do they leave us alone here?” Eunhyuk asked nervously. He woke up late this morning and found out that all were already gone, exept Sungmin. When Eunhyuk planned to went out, Sungmin just simply said that actually Teuki hyung ordered them both not to leave the dorm.

“These days, you know that it’s not safe anymore for us to go out alone, because of those wild anti fans. Teuki hyung said we have to wait for him if we wanna leave. So now, just stay where you are,” Sungmin said coldly, but his eyes stared at the book that he read still, did not look at Eunhyuk at all. Eunhyuk felt so uneasy.

“Have you eaten? I’ll cook for you if you haven’t.”

Sungmin took a deep breath and closed his book. He really could not afford this anymore, “Cook for me? Don’t be silly. I am the one who always cook for you and treat you well. How come you act like a full responsible man now?”

Eunhyuk gasped. Did Sungmin angry on him? “Why do you change? It is not the real you that I know.”

“What do you mean? I’m still Sungmin that you know. You are the one who change here. You just wandering around, teasing on me. When I need someone you always be there for me and when you need help you always come to me, especially after Donghae left to Chine. And when you finally make me really fall in love with you, you just simply reject me and avoid me. Don’t you thing it is hurt? Or maybe you are happy now for successfully breaking my heart,” Sungmin smirk.

Eunhyuk was trembling, his tears was falling down to his cheek uncontrollable. How could Sungmin had such kind of opinion about him? Didn’t Sungmin realize that his heart hurt too? He didn’t want to hurt anyone, especially those who were so special for him, like Donghae, Teuki hyung, and of course…. Sungmin.

Being not able to control himself anymore, Eunhyuk hugged Sungmin tightly. His tears made Sungmin’s shirt wet, but Sungmin didn’t do nothing because he was too surprise.

“Why do you think that I just play around? I love you too…. I really felt hurt when I rejected you yesterday….”

“So why did you….”

“I have told you, right? You are a different person now. You are not the one who always makes fun together with me anymore, you are not the one who always does childish things with me anymore. Instead, you become cruel, harsh somehow, and never let me to have any fun, never let me to… umph!”

Eunhyuk was silenced by Sungmin’s lips that suddenly touching his. Sungmin kissed him gently, deeply. Eunhyuk closed his eyes, enjoyed all the movements that Sungmin did. But a part of his mind told him to stop, told him to finish all the problems with Sungmin first.

So Eunhyuk just tried to pull away from Sungmin, wanted to continue his unfinished talk. But instead of letting him go, Sungmin grasped Eunhyuk’s waist hard, and gave him forceful and delightful kiss.

“Sungmin…..”

Sungmin opened his eyes, he stopped his kiss and looked at Eunhyuk’s eyes straight. But he didn’t release Eunhyuk’s waist. “Listen… I changed these days because I want to be useful for the hyungs, since they have to work harder these days. But this morning, Teuki hyung just simply told me to be the real me, not to try to be the other Sungmin who looks smarter but hurts other’s feeling….. Hyukjae, I’m sorry. I won’t change anymore, I’ll be the one whom you know before, okay? Would you give me one more chance? You won’t reject me this time, will you? Don’t cry anymore…..”

Eunhyuk nodded. His heart was full with joy. Sungmin would be back, Sungmin would be his again, and he would be Sungmin’s. eunhyuk leaned down, his lips touched Sungmin’s and pressed it gently. They would have fun. They would.